It’s not about me

Thank you to all who commented on my last self endulgent post. Reading through them today has reminded me that I have a mind that too easily slips into self obsession.
Step 12 says ” Having had a spiritual experience as the result of this course of action, we tried to carry this message to others, especially alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.”  So “tried to carry” well that’s what I’m trying to achieve I hope.  However the big thing in this step for me is always “practice these principles in all our affairs” 
In my recovery once over the initial months of drink obsession and then a few more of a mind that resembled a washing machine on a 1,400 rpm spin I’ve found two things a continuous challenge…  Being totally honest with myself about my true motives and to up hold the principles of honesty and service to others it all aspects of my life.
Whilst I’d say these are “a struggle” it’s a good struggle one that makes me look out of my, frankly, very comfortable existence and ask how I can do more for others. That needs to be my focus for the coming year rather than too much self focus about whether I’m providing value. If I walk the walk that will be hopefully enough example.

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About furtheron

Music and guitar obsessive who is a recovering alcoholic to boot
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7 Responses to It’s not about me

  1. …I have a mind that too easily slips into self obsession.

    Welcome to the human race.

    • daisyfae says:

      …I have a mind that too easily slips into self obsession.

      That’s kinda what a blog is for? Yes? Self-obsession is one way to describe it, but self-awareness, and the ability to communicate that awareness is a very useful thing for ourselves, and others out here sorting out our own demons!

  2. Liz Hinds says:

    True motives. I was reading a book this afternoon in which the author, priest, recounts the moment he realises that his motivation was all really about wanting to be liked and approved of rather than the higher spiritual ideal of doing it all for God. I am so often aware of that in me but annoyingly the writer didn’t go to say anything profound or, really, even whether he’s still in that place.
    But yes I guess if we look outwards rather than inwards then maybe our motivation will change without us realising. I really hope so.
    But does it matter if it doesn’t? I should be writing a blog post about this not filling up your comments!
    Thought-provoking again, Furtheron.

  3. Sherry says:

    We all do this from time to time…it’s how we reset ourselves and get back on track.

    Sherry

  4. Oh, another reason I love you is that you understand how hard the loss of music is to me!
    Not everyone gets that.
    xo
    Wendy

  5. Suburbia says:

    Maybe not self obsession but self reflection? All part of the counselling toolkit – totally unavoidable!
    You are an inspiration – hope that doesn’t sound condescending, it’s not meant to be.

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