New year views

Do you make New Year’s Resolutions?  I haven’t done in years – they always ended up dis-guarded by mid Jan at the earliest and Mid Feb at the latest.  I was reflecting that really why do you need 1st Jan to be the day you do anything you want to change?  14th May 2004 was a Friday – it was a boringly uneventful day – the only two real significant events worldwide on that date ever are that Israel declared independence from Great Britain in 1948 (that’s gone well!) and in 1787 delegates gathered to begin drawing up the USA constitution (possibly went better…).

However for me along with my birthday, the birth of my children, the day Mrs F walked up the aisle to meet me at the alter etc. it was the most significant day in my life.  I lay down after the final bender and cried and cried. Lying there in the foetal position I knew I just had to do something about my drinking.  So I did – the rest of that history is on this blog elsewhere.

But a new year does lead you to look back and look ahead.  2018 – well less said about that the better  for me in many senses.  Dominated by my illness and subsequently leaving the world of work, probably permanently.   I still feel I’m looking back on my career and thinking – I’d really not worked out what I was really doing and now it’s gone!  I’m one of those that sort of bumbles through life – remarkably well for the most part and very luckily with some good results overall.  But I can still think “Did I achieve anything of any real value?”  But then a belated farewell from a colleague over Christmas surprised me with the level of esteem they seem to hold me in.  I’m no doubt my own worst critic.

However 2018 had some really great things too – my daughter getting her MSc with flying colours.  Clearly the reason her thesis was passed requiring no revisions was of course down to the efforts of Mrs F and yours truly as her proof readers … ahem … 😉  My son’s engagement and his confirmation of longer term funding for his position.

I’m hopeful for 2019 to be a better year healthwise.  Whilst not symptom and attack free since I did officially stop attempting to work my condition has overall been better.  I’ve some projects planned – you’ll probably see more of them on the other blog – and time to enjoy doing them at least!

Happy new year to you all and may it be for those that want it a sober one.

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About furtheron

Music and guitar obsessive who is a recovering alcoholic to boot
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4 Responses to New year views

  1. Happy New Year, Graham! I don’t make resolutions any more either!
    I hope you continue to feel a bit better!
    xo
    Wendy

  2. I make resolutions every year. You have to try. I make them ‘do-able.’ Nothing too grand. If I could resolve to do ANYTHING, I’d resolve to be younger. But I can’t.

    You talk like someone in the throes of Midlife Crisis. Don’t ask what makes me such an expert. Just take my word for it.

    Happy New Year, pal. Long road.

  3. daisyfae says:

    Wishing you and your family a very happy, prosperous and healthy 2019! Here’s to the ‘bumblers’! i never really planned much in my life, but looking backwards, it all worked out pretty nicely… i quit making resolutions, and have adopted the process of ‘intentions’ – things to keep in my mind as i go about my days. Keeping the “Harder to Kill” and “Preparing to Die” at the forefront for yet another year…

  4. looby says:

    Happy New Year furtheron — I’m full of admiration for your sticking to the “long road” as Exile calls it. I managed six days once, which is pathetic.

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