Sadly my local meetings are feeling sader places the last week or so. A long term member who has been struggling passed away. 46. Yes 46 but despite a period of sobreity she’d got back into a cycle of destructive binge drinking and finally she paid the ultimate price and has left us and her young son bereft.
I only want to say this as the only good thing that can come out of this.
Alcoholism is a killer disease. If you have a problem with alcohol don’t fuck around. Find a way to stop drinking and stay stopped. Good luck.
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I’m so sorry to hear this. An absolute tragedy.
It’s hard to understand if you’ve never been there. How do folks get sucked back in after being sober? You’d think it gets easier as time passes, like when you stop smoking, but apparently that’s not the case.
Sometimes time let’s a person forget just how bad things were.
Tv, advertising, etc all promote drinking as a way to let loose and de stress.
That message can sometimes overshadow sanity. Sadly.
Unbelievable. A never-ending battle. Remind me to stop complaining so much.
No…it’s not a battle. It’s a daily celebration of freedom….
But that comes with a need to respect my sobriety and cherish it.
I’m not sure if that makes sense? I have been sober for almost 5 years and I do not feel a bit deprived.
It is an insidious mental illness. It continues to try to deceive you that you are the exceptional alcoholic and you will be able to drink normally again. And then one day at that moment you let your guard drop and you think one drink will be ok…. it won’t because 1 is never enough.
I told hubs I wanted a glass of wine be when I turned 80. Then realized 1 would not be enough.
xo
Thank you for the reminder that nothing good comes from drinking.
I am so sorry to read this. It strikes me right at the wrong time too. Lost a former student under some dubious circumstances last week. I am sorry for your loss. Truly. I know this thing and it sucks. And it is a killer disease.
Thank you for reminding me, Graham.
xo
Wendy
Feel your pain, I lost a few good AA freinds along my journey. Being sober and staying sober is a continual exrecise in maintenance. Not a battle but a total acceptance of who you are and that you don’t drink under any circumastamces. The day I totally accepted my alcoholism is the day I got better and staying sober was no longer a battle. It’s just who I am and thats perfectly ok by me. But yes always a sad time when one of the group falls off the program.
Jail, institution, or death. Each time addiction kills, I am sad, but it helps me remember….that I choose life.
so very sorry to hear of such a loss….