Isolation

Isolating is a bad place for those of us in recovery to be.  That’s something I’ve heard over the years.  Do I believe it?  Hmmm… work in progress.

One thing is true I’m currently trying an experiment in isolation myself.  The update is that my Ménière’s Disease is not getting better.  If anything it is getting worse.  I hardly worked through December as a result.  This has led to me spending a lot of time at home on my own…. isolating.  Consequently I’m not going to meetings much either.  I’m fearful of attacks when I’m out.  When at home it is ok for me to be lying on the floor or sitting clutching a bucket to throw up into.   Having now had two attacks at a couple of instances in work and one at a theatre being in public in that state is humiliating and embarrassing for everyone about me.  My wife had to recently put up with me lying on the floor in a supermarket whilst she tried to deal with the shopping at the till.

Work has been good so far and we’re trying an experiment of me working totally from home rather than back off work totally.  However… I’m not sure it’ll work long term.

I called the hospital to try to get another appointment.  In Dec they were going to book me in for a test then consider an operation to help.  But … there’s some reason they can’t do the tests currently.  I’ve asked for another appointment to talk to the consultant.

So that’s where it is … or isn’t currently.   So sorry I’ve not been about much but the lack of interaction in the real world seems to reflect in my lack of interaction in the on-line one too.

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Music and guitar obsessive who is a recovering alcoholic to boot
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11 Responses to Isolation

  1. ainsobriety says:

    I’m sorry to hear that.
    It must be very frustrating and stressful.
    I hope you get an appointment and perhaps a new treatment plan.
    Anne

  2. Lisa Neumann says:

    The beauty of this “meeting” is that someone is always here to send love to you. Light and healing my friend. Blessings for the new year. ♥

  3. mikeykjr says:

    Take care of yourself but definitely keep on the dr’ arse about perhaps a new diagnosis and treatment. I can only imagine the frustration you go through life. Thank you for posting something. I’ve just learned a lesson. No matter who frustrating life may be; someone, somewhere has it worse than you.

  4. daisyfae says:

    this sounds so very miserable… i can’t begin to imagine. i hope that there can be some relief in the near future. take care!

  5. byebyebeer says:

    Oh man, that sounds horrible. I hope they get you in fast for an appointment. I hope you find relief. I can understand why you’d want to stay home for now. Please keep us posted.

  6. Graham, I am so sorry!
    Yes, please keep us posted.
    I so hope you get relief.
    xo
    Wendy

  7. Elsie says:

    My heart is aching for you right now, Graham. I am sending you my thoughts and prayers that they can figure out what has brought on this latest series of attacks and get up you taken care of soon. Healing vibes headed your way!

  8. Well, it’s not like we’ve forgotten about you. Or ever will. C’mon back when you’re healthy and able. We’ll still be here.

  9. I’m so sorry you’re suffering right now. Hoping they get this under control soon. My grandmother had the same disease but Antivert helped her quite a bit.
    Sharon

  10. Paul S says:

    I spent some time reading up about this, as I hadn’t heard of it before, and I am so sorry you are suffering with this, Graham. I really hope you keep with the medical appointments. As for the isolating…it’s hard to go out when you feel that you may be ill. I get it. But I hope you don’t go too far – you know how that is for us. You are more than free to email me any time with anything you want to vent about or talk about. Seriously. I hope you feel better in terms of the doctors being able to help keep the symptoms down and under control.

  11. Liz Hinds says:

    That sounds absolutely dreadful. I do hope you get to see the consultant soon and they can help you. Isolation is definitely not good for addicts in my limited experience. Sending you love.

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