These days when I don’t drink I find I can do the easiest of things without a concern – without worry even dread some times.
I used to think that I couldn’t cope with Friday without drinking. Somewhere in my early drinking career Friday became a day I just drank. Go to work, sole purpose to be in the pub at or before noon. Stay there as long as I could get away with, to the point I often never went back to work on a Friday afternoon or if I did it was only for a few minutes before I left early! Then off to the pub again before getting home. Then out about 8pm to go see a band at my local pub… i.e. drink more.
However as my son got older he joined the scouts and the main evening for things to do was a Friday. This meant I often was asked to pick him and his friend up about 10pm. I picked them up numerous times totally over the drink drive limit. Not something I’m proud of. I used to dread it when I knew I’d failed any kind of control and was sure someone would challenge me or worse still call the police etc. Somehow I never had a crash and never hurt anyone… that doesn’t justify it it is just something I am grateful for.
This Saturday my daughter went out “clubbing” to celebrate a friends birthday and before a bunch of them all head off to university in the coming days. Her boyfriend was also out “clubbing” with his football club – I think to celebrate a birthday… maybe not it was a bit vague!
1:30am – yes folks I’m still awake and I pull up at the agreed place and they get in, not too worse for their night out and drive them home. No worry, no problem… a simple little thing but for me a great thing to be able to do. This for those of you who study the programme is my Step 9 – this is the direct amends today I can make for the things I did wrong before.